So, as a Blog should be a home on the internet to host a diary of my personal thoughts and feelings, I guess its truth time… I’m well aware of the phenomenon that is social media vs reality, and despite slight #fomo or jealousy from time to time can generally see through what’s real and what’s fake online. But looking back through my posts over the last few weeks I can also see that I’ve been presenting an image of someone on top of their workouts and diet, preaching self love and confidence. And yet I’ve spent the past few weeks struggling with terrible body image. Rightly or wrongly I feel huge and ashamed of my body right now – and rather than post another perfect photoshoot picture from 4 months ago when I felt better about the way I looked, I thought I’d share my own open, honest feelings and insecurities and let you know that even someone supposedly “in control” can have days, weeks or even months when they just don’t feel like they cut it. This photo was taken two weeks ago, and despite feeling horribly self conscious on the night I looked back at this picture today and thought “actually I do look slim here”…. Even though I felt anything but at the time. I wanted to share this ridiculousness with you – I’ve honestly felt embarrassed the past couple of weeks standing in front of my clients and classes and thinking they must be wondering why they’ve employed a hippopotamus to give them health and fitness advice. Yet I can look at this picture and clearly see I’m not overweight…. But there is a disconnect between my eyes and my brain somewhere, and I know a lot of women out there feel the same way. I’ve spent the past few days telling a very close friend of mine to stop being silly and saying she’s big and bloated when she looks so fantastic and ignoring that advice myself.

Body dysmorphia is a real and crippling condition, and for me personally a throwback to my past eating disorder, and I just, for what it’s worth, wanted to share my own very real feelings on the subject.

Does social media, and the constant presence of “perfect” bodies, butts and abs help with these feelings? Possibly not. But if me sharing my truth, and revealing that those of us responsible for some of those “look how clean I eat and what a fab six pack I have if I really tense and get a selfie in this awesome lighting” photos feels uncomfortable and inauthentic sometimes too, then maybe, just maybe there may be some good in it too? I’ve always used my social media and my Blog to be honest – yes I have lost a lot of weight and changed myself and my lifestyle drastically to be where I am now, but I just wanted to be honest that despite all the gym selfies, workout photos and protein shake pics, that I do, very much, have my off days too. And you know what? It’s okay. I’m okay, and trust me, you’re very much okay too. Just the way you are. Take social media with a pinch of salt. Not everyone is being honest with you, or themselves. Guess I need to focus on being less hippo, more Wildcat!

I’d love to know if any of you struggle with Body Dysmorphia, and if so, what do you do or have you done to help overcome it? Do you find it hard to admit? I’m always really keen to hear and learn from other bloggers and would love to hear from you if this post has struck a chord.

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  • I've struggled in the past and have been going strong for the last few years - but after my recent holiday, where routine went out of the window I struggled. My love for food and enjoyment of pints in the sun mean I enjoyed ice cream and enjoyed the alcohol - I ran every morning up to 8k (super huge hills though) and it helped, but all holiday each day I just felt I was getting bigger and bigger - Of course, when I got home I weighed myself and there was about a pounds difference! - all in the head..
    It effected my mood and my bubbly, easy going personality - i was a brat to be around for my family and feel guilty that I was so moody all the time - and honestly it's scary, because I thought i'd let that person go.

    • I am so sorry to read this and that you've been battling dysmorphia too. It comes back to haunt us when we least expect it - but stay strong - you got this, I promise x

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